Shea’s Hero – Self-doubt (Part 3/5)
Shea is still full of self-doubt concerning her methadone treatment and the weight she’s gained. She wants to feel good about getting clean and is hoping she can actually STAY clean this time, but her weight gain isn’t helping any. Especially considering that she was able to stay thin without any exercise via an on-again-off-again drug binge (primarily heroin and cocaine, sometimes meth tho it wasn’ther thing). Ultimately, although she knows treatment is all for the better, it still doesn’t mean she isn’t full of anxiety about it.
Anne suggested that Shea checks out 4chan/adv/ instead of /soc/, because while /soc/ is full of degenerates who get off on stuff like normal looking women and even… holding hands (pervs!!)…/adv/ is more work-safe and full of people who know they’re not normies but realize they need to at least pretend to be one for long enough to get some.. well, normalcy in their life. Anyways, hopefully someone there can say the right things to help Shea feel better about herself. Like, would a guy also her age be OK with a woman who looks like her?
The last three pictures I drew, not for the sake of titillation, but just to show that Shea’s still beautiful with her little extra weight, even if she herself thinks otherwise.
Thing is, I’ve always depicted Shea as sorta “normal hot”, which I feel fit her personality. Had Instagram existed in her 20s, she would’ve milked that hard core; that said she would’ve tortured her simp fans. But now that she’s old and disgusting (at least as she sees herself) and has nothing to show for her life… no family, no friends, no boyfriend, no money, and her oven going TICK TOCK MOFO… it feels like her methadone weight gain is just the cherry on her shit sandwich. A mockery of her life.
But yknow what? Even if she isn’t “normal hot”, I still think she’s beautiful. Almost like a statue of a Greek goddess, which always had a little bit of thicc-ness to them.